13 January 2010

Haiti

My heart is broken. I went to Haiti when I was my sickest - about 92 pounds. Now everything I knew there is destroyed, and I don't know if the children I held are dead or alive.

I wasn't suppose to go to Haiti. My doctor told me I was too sick. My mother cried and begged me not to go. But I felt Haiti calling me ...

And in the end, Haiti saved me. The children there were honest, and told me I was too thin. The pictures of me shocked me, and helped open my eyes to what anorexia was doing to me.

Here are a few pictures. I am very proud of them, because it shows that I went outside my eating disorder and was still Angela underneath the bones and the unrelenting obsession with food and calories and weight. I was still me, and anorexia had not stolen my love for people and helping them. I just wish I could have given Haiti more.


8 comments:

Anonymous said...

Angela, I'm so proud of you! Sometimes you have to break the rules to get help, and because you were able to, GOOD FOR YOU!!!

I love you,

Ashley Zook

shona said...

Angela, you are so incredible to have gone there being so ill. Your strength amazes me. Your generosity and kindness will always pull you through any obstacle.

Lou Lou said...

I am so sorry for your broken heart. It is so devestating what has happened. Haiti was "calling you" I love that. I love the honesty of children.

I Hate to Weight said...

oh, you made me cry. your own experience is so poignant, and it also tells the story of those around you.

may god bless haiti.

lisalisa said...

I know, this is just so sad. i truly hope that those that you met there are alive and well. haiti will likely need help for many years, maybe you could go back at some point?

ghost girl said...

This made my heart swell...
What an experience...I was hesitant to read this post
bc i was afraid it would hurt..and it did
but - not in a bad way.
The word "resilience" came to mind.
You are an amazing person.....
shawna

Karita said...

Hello, new to your blog. I have only read this post so far, but your strength just shouts out to me. You helped people, when you were so ill.

Silly Girl said...

My heart just breaks for those in Haiti. Thank you for sharing your experience. It shows what an amazing person you are.