You made me
Sm
al
le
r
Shrinking
me
and my
W O R L D.
Leaving me with
n o t h i n g . . . . . .
Intertwined
for years,
when you started to fade away
my fingertips would
reach out,
grasping for you
afraid
Anorexia is thy name
And I was thee.
My soul and yours
a hazy mixture
Unable to be part of
Life
You did serve
A purpose
Or two
Protecting me
In a strange and
S I C K
way.
Anxiety calmed
Depression staved off
(For a while, anyway
It was never a permanent
Fix.)
It was never a permanent
Fix.)
To let go
even now
Your voice still screams
You don't deserve
to eat
You don't . . .
But I know there is
No
option of returning to you
In order to live,
I must allow you to
die.
It is time
to say good-bye.
Your usefulness
Is gone
All you can bring me is
Grief.
And I have already cried
so many t
e
a
r
s
because of you . . .
Anorexia
Now
I want
life
mind
soul
body
The arms of my
husband around me
Not your snakelike
Tentacles.
Friends
Conversations
Reading
Writing
Laughter
The smile
that you tried to
kill.
My thoughts
are becoming
Free
of your interference
And I am beginning
to finally
rediscover
Me.
7 comments:
Beautiful! It brought tears to my eyes. You give me hope.
I echo what Silly Girl says and add what an inspiration you are.
Angela,
This was so beautiful!!! Thank you for sharing, I can definitely relate. You should be so proud of yourself for your willingness and determination to leave Anorexia in your past and rediscover who you are. Keep it up!!! I hope that things have been going well since your husband moved back in- thinking of you!
<3
I love the poem--it is very touching. Thank you for sharing it with us.
Dear ED,
You suck.
I won.
Goodbye.
-Angela
Angela you are awesome! Keep kicking Ed's @ss!
XOLisa
Well said. And I mean it -- what evocative writing.
I'm so glad to hear all of this. yes, it is wonderful to be in your husband's arms and how awful to be stuck in Anorexia's tentacles.
You're an extraordinary woman
Beautiful poem! Thank you for sharing it.
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