The Truth About Anorexia | Surviving ED

The Truth About Anorexia | Surviving ED

Feeling Pulled Apart: Stress and Eating Disorder Recovery | Surviving ED

Feeling Pulled Apart: Stress and Eating Disorder Recovery | Surviving ED

Obsessed

I want to be thin again...it's all I can think about. I'm obsessed again.

Fat...fat....fat....fat....fat....fat........

Why doesn't my brain just shut-up and let me enjoy recovery??? By no stretch of the imagination am I overweight and I know that logically. But I just can't see it right now. I can't see that I'm a healthy woman with a healthy body, like people tell me. All I see is FAT. (And why am I so afraid of fat, anyway? I truly think it is a symptom of something else, a symptom caused by fear.)

Is anorexia going to haunt me forever???

All I think is after I defend my thesis, I can start restricting again.

I think of size zero and being tiny and how I've let myself go.

No...no...no....no....NO!!!!

I hate being this vulnerable. When will it stop???

Damaging Words: Why Not All Eating Disorder Blogs Are Equal | Surviving ED

Damaging Words: Why Not All Eating Disorder Blogs Are Equal | Surviving ED

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Thinking about leaving...

I'm thinking about deleting this blog. I mean, does anybody even read it anymore?

There has been so much drama on the Internet lately, and it frankly has me really depressed.

I love writing and sharing with others, but I just don't know.......