tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6087514598714132464.post6523281693849248346..comments2023-06-04T09:36:49.640-04:00Comments on The Spirit Within: The lies of ProanaAngela Elain Gambrelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08199876962091491591noreply@blogger.comBlogger6125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6087514598714132464.post-2401546373160666632010-08-12T12:55:39.814-04:002010-08-12T12:55:39.814-04:00Your mind IS split in two, but that can be a good ...Your mind IS split in two, but that can be a good thing. There is a part of you, even if it is a whisper, that wants recovery. You don't deserve to live in Ana purgatory. Yesterday, my therapist told me that I was afraid of my own power, and that is true. I'm afraid that if I gain weight, people will expect too much of me, or that I will fail. Do you think that fits for you at all? I know everyone else has told you to stay away from the pro-ana sites. When I was at my sickest, I visited them also. You are right, they are nothing but lies. I also stay away from fashion magazines and triggering t.v shows. I love the last line of this post. It shows that you have hope. Keep believing in all of the possibilities! Sending hugs<3 Let's keep fighting!Angelahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05748840293468845389noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6087514598714132464.post-6862649921566645812010-08-11T22:21:30.783-04:002010-08-11T22:21:30.783-04:00babe, i'm sorry you're going through this....babe, i'm sorry you're going through this. I wish i could offer you encouragement without being a complete hypocrite but honestly i can't...<br /><br />but try. at least try. <br /><br />you can do this. i know anxiety and ed go hand in hand. they silently feed off each other. they enable each other.<br /><br />i can identify directly w/you....i wish proana sites didn't exist bc it IS SO Hard to stay off of them...Lisahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14205933300947954793noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6087514598714132464.post-77411849154546656632010-08-11T19:00:27.189-04:002010-08-11T19:00:27.189-04:00Most of the pro-ana sites are very young girls who...Most of the pro-ana sites are very young girls who just don't know better. I was never lured into the whole pro-ana thing... I felt sorry for those girls. My anorexia was never about looking thin, it was how I felt - so looking super thin wasn't really a full part of my disorder. I was ashamed of my emaciated body and knew full well that the only people that think an emaciated body is beautiful are anorexics. When people would say to me, "You are so thin!" it wasn't a compliment. <br /><br />I agree - you have to let go of the pro-ana. Block yourself from those sites if you have to. It's all baby steps to walking away from anorexia. Blocking such sites, getting rid of your scale (if you have one) etc. <br /><br />I think living with an anorexic spouse is indeed so hard on the other spouse. It's like living with a third party. We don't choose to be anorexic, but we do choose whether or not we take steps towards recovery. We have to let go of the disease, sometimes in pieces (letting go of pro-ana, scales, calorie counting, etc.) <br /><br />I'm currently weight restored, and it hasn't killed me. I'm still not full recovered because some of the behaviors are still alive. But it does slowly (very slowly) get easier to be a normal weight. That was never who I was - anorexia is a thing I have, not a thing I am. It didn't make me beautiful or pure or holy or any of that. It just made me sick. And it strained all the relationships in my life - some never recovered. You still have a chance here. Take it. Let go of the anorexia in small ways and big ways. It is possible. You just have to sit through the bad feelings, and let them wash over you, but then like the tide, they do eventually wash back out.brokenwordshttp://opensourwings.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6087514598714132464.post-31072923055056250852010-08-11T13:06:14.858-04:002010-08-11T13:06:14.858-04:00You really need to stay off them. Or maybe get a p...You really need to stay off them. Or maybe get a picture of what Ana really does to a person, their brains literaly loose volume, their hair falls out, the bones rot from the inside out. They are not able to think clearly or about anything, there muscles eat themselves to try and live. Their internal organs eat themselves. <br /><br />This is a horribale hidious thing. It is not glamorous or lovely. It not something to show you've made it. Eating when it hurts to eat, eating when your mind screams at you not to that is the true challenge. That is what makeing it is.Eating With Othershttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07885274679677042833noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6087514598714132464.post-25263980612957540312010-08-10T23:22:25.644-04:002010-08-10T23:22:25.644-04:00I can identify with your post so much. I remember ...I can identify with your post so much. I remember having many of those same feelings and anxieties when my recovery was first beginning. It's a very tricky time when you're not sure which voice to listen to. <br /><br />I also agree that it's best to stay away from the proana sites. You're right, they're full of lies. I made the mistake of frequenting them in the past and nothing good came of it. In fact, nothing came of it except me feeling inadequate. I thought I would never be good enough to do anything. I thought I'd never look the way I was supposed to.<br /><br />That's so poisonous. You are beautiful and anorexia is ugly. It's not tragically beautiful or painfully artistic or any of those things the proana sites want us to believe.<br /><br />It's just plain dangerous. Unhealthy. And flirting with disaster.<br /><br />And eating like a normal person will not kill you. It will *heal* you. It is what was intended for us to live. For everything to live. <br /><br />Best of luck to you, sweetie.lifeafteranorexiahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14995948227699986041noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6087514598714132464.post-53723904887398624702010-08-10T21:10:41.429-04:002010-08-10T21:10:41.429-04:00oh, angela. sending big hugs and warmest thoughts ...oh, angela. sending big hugs and warmest thoughts your way. take such gentle care of yourself.<br /><br />is there any way you can stay off the pro=ana sites? it sounds so, well, lonely. <br /><br />i wonder what you are doing about care these days? i pray you are in good hands and eating some. <br /><br />you are wonderful and kind and so very smart. you are wonderful and kind and so very smart. you deserve the best care.<br /><br />and you are so courageous in what you write. you are in my prayers.I Hate to Weighthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17241064340434705588noreply@blogger.com