tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6087514598714132464.post457957544215110490..comments2023-06-04T09:36:49.640-04:00Comments on The Spirit Within: Survivor's guilt (living with anorexia)Angela Elain Gambrelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08199876962091491591noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6087514598714132464.post-16721943731487463322011-04-29T10:42:09.728-04:002011-04-29T10:42:09.728-04:00A tree is known by its fruit.A tree is known by its fruit.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6087514598714132464.post-52636863972974596092010-10-08T23:27:43.357-04:002010-10-08T23:27:43.357-04:00i just did a huge post on acceptance and i think y...i just did a huge post on acceptance and i think you may benft from reading it if your interested. i recently went thru a similar realization.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6087514598714132464.post-45687108809815070592010-10-08T21:19:32.513-04:002010-10-08T21:19:32.513-04:00One of the things that I have to think of when I s...One of the things that I have to think of when I start feeling that resistance: Okay, so I could go back to restricting and losing - but what, EXACTLY, would that prove? <br /><br />It would, in essence, prove my weakness - it is SO MUCH HARDER to eat even when you don't want to, to gain weight when you REALLY don't want to, to sit in feelings and fears that you've avoided for years. It is strong and courageous to follow the path of the recovery. It is also the best way to honor those who have lost their lives in this battle.<br /><br />Missy states it SO well when she says that they are looking down and want so much for you (for all of us!) the recovery that they couldn't achieve on earth.<br /><br />Stay strong. You are inspiring. And you have much to fight for.<br /><br />-JessAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6087514598714132464.post-87762264721392576712010-10-04T19:28:56.416-04:002010-10-04T19:28:56.416-04:00Im incredibly moved by this...so much so that I ha...Im incredibly moved by this...so much so that I have little words. <br />In your heart you KNOW that the angels up there UNDERSTAND and want nothing more for you than the recovery they missed. <br /><br />Almost one year ago my brother died. He had everything...including a one-year old little boy. I have nothing, at 32, but this stupid disease. It shuld have been me. Survivor's guilt...I know the feeling. <br />Let's use it to fuel our recovery. <br />I'm trying.<br />~MissyAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6087514598714132464.post-73252687078070233682010-10-04T10:27:52.274-04:002010-10-04T10:27:52.274-04:00I don't think it is so much a question of why ...I don't think it is so much a question of why you deserve to live when so many others died, but a sadness that so many did die when they deserved to live. You deserve just as much life as anyone else who lives or who has survived an eating disorder, as does anyone who died from an eating disorder. People don't die because they don't deserve to live, people die because it is a necessity of life. Personally, I am astounded at how many people manage to survive. There are so many ways to die! How do so many people manage to evade death for so long?!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6087514598714132464.post-35652949924652968292010-10-04T09:12:34.791-04:002010-10-04T09:12:34.791-04:00Hello dear,
I have read your blog for a while now...Hello dear,<br /><br />I have read your blog for a while now. I didn't dare to comment earlier since I do not talk about eating issues on my fashion blog. <br /><br />But this is my life too. My struggle, just like yours. I too am trying to beat anorexia thoughts. I have found comfort and encouragement in what you have shared. Thank you. Dearly.<br /><br />I just wanted you to know.Susu Paris Chichttp://www.makinen.fr/susa/wordpress/noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6087514598714132464.post-59372379760782600432010-10-03T17:23:43.038-04:002010-10-03T17:23:43.038-04:00it's good that you're writing about this. ...it's good that you're writing about this. <br /><br />i think resistance is part of recovery. and there are very hard times. a big part of recovery, i think, is learning to sit with the resistance, to ride through all the extreme discomfort, staying in there as you move toward the other end.<br /><br />i know what it means to have no idea who you are outside of ED (drinking and drugs too for me.) and it's TERRIFYING. but very doable, i believe. Hope is everything.<br /><br />i also think that LIVING is the best hope for everyone. live for the girl who died. do not let anorexia win.<br /><br />i agree with everything Lisalisa says.<br /><br />again, so great that you shared this. you are not alone.<br /><br />much love,<br />melissaI Hate to Weighthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17241064340434705588noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6087514598714132464.post-62849212499048166072010-10-03T17:09:35.757-04:002010-10-03T17:09:35.757-04:00I used to think things like "I have to get do...I used to think things like "I have to get down to X pounds before I can allow myself to eat and recover" or "I just want to reach that certain goal weight and then I will be satisfied enough to let go of anorexia for good". I still have those thoughts sometimes. But then I get real. Sure, I COULD go back to anorexia, but do I really want to start that all over again? Painfully starving myself down to nothing, and then just as painfully struggling to recover? No way. I'm just so tired of it.<br />Instead of just seeing what anorexia wants you to see, follow those thoughts through to their logical conclusion. I'm not necessarily talking about death. I'm talking about the next 10 (20, 30) years spent on the rollercoaster of sickness and recovery.<br />Every person who recovers from an eating disorder gives hope to those still struggling. I know you can't save everyone from dying, but I have a feeling that some day you will be able to share your story and touch others lives for good. Give yourself a chance to get there!<br />XOLisalisalisahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03506556513672749033noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6087514598714132464.post-23486808304444665592010-10-03T15:55:30.842-04:002010-10-03T15:55:30.842-04:00Hi there,
I think I know what you mean. My frien...Hi there,<br /><br />I think I know what you mean. My friend died about a year ago, and he was a wonderful, caring person. When someone like that is not here anymore, then why the heck am I here? What's so great about me? I know that this is ED talking, though, and that a confident version of myself would be able to confirm that I touch and help a lot of people. I relate a lot to what you said. I think that we should just be reaching out to people and living while we're here instead of wondering why we're here in the the first place. <br /><br />Thank you for sharing.<br /><br />-EmilyEmilyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06140656536484404635noreply@blogger.com